FOR all Glen Durrant would love to be heading to the Circus Tavern for the World Seniors ready to turn back the clock, the Teessider admits his game is "nowhere near" the level he'd want it to be.
And yet Durrant is happy.
Of course, he's the first to admit he'd love to be preparing for his debut on the Seniors stage as the man to beat, as he was when he was dominating on the BDO circuit, winning the Lakeside world title three times before making the move to the PDC where he also enjoyed immense success, lifting the prestigious Premier League trophy.
After a quite dramatic loss of form, those days look to be behind him, and yet Duzza still sees flashes of what he's capable of on the practice board. And he admits he was taken aback when he looked at the odds for the World Seniors Championships and saw that the bookies had priced him at 100/1. Those odds have been slashed ahead of his opening round game against Mark Dudbridge on Friday night, but Duzza is still not one of the fancied picks.
He'd love to prove the pundits and the bookies wrong but Duzza feels no pressure. For while he spent two years desperately battling to rediscover his best form, the 52-year-old is more than content in life, regardless of what happens on the board.
He's making waves in commentary, his coaching is going well and, most importantly, he's got a young grandson who he sees every day. Wins on the board are an added bonus.
"I feel like I deserve to enjoy my darts," Duzza tells The Northern Echo.
"I'm so happy right now. The commentary is going fantastic, the coaching has gone through the roof, I've got my little grandson. I'm totally at peace."
But don't be fooled into thinking the competitive fire doesn't still burn.
"When I looked and saw I was 100/1, that was a real wow moment, a realisation of where I've gone more than anything else," he says.
"I look back to when I won my third Lakeside, I was the even money favourite going in, so the pressure was totally different then. All the pundits, not one have said I'll win my first game, so it's a different type of feeling. I always said I can't wait for the day I'm the underdog!"
Duzza recently won a local competition and there are flashes in his practice room at home of the player who was once among the most feared on the planet.
He says: "It's all about the rhythm, if I can throw smoothly. When I get it right at home, I see the old Duzza coming out. But obviously it's different in a match environment.
"I'm using a new dart which feels good. There are lots of positives but I wish I was going there like in the Lakeside days thinking about who I am going to play in the final.
"I'll go and enjoy it. If darts ever does come back then great, but for me these days it's not the be-all and end-all.
"I know people say don't self-reflect until it's over but I'm proud of what I've achieved.
"Being a darts player is second best right now, the only motivation I saw is that 100/1 shot. That got the juices flowing, and who knows what will happen."
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